Today, 18 February, I turn 54 and enter my 55th year of life. What a wonderful day to celebrate my birthday, just after the new moon, the solar eclipse and Chinese New Year, when the Wood Snake makes way for the Fire Horse💫.
Over the past few months, I have been going through a very intense and, above all, necessary process. A process that had been announced some time ago.
It all has to do with femininity. My femininity 🌹💃
A lot has happened since then. From one process to another. It started with a women's retreat last December, where I really began to connect with all the phases of being a woman in the company of only women, followed by a truffle journey in January, during which my pelvic area and my womb were pointed out to me, along with everything in between and beyond. I can't put it into words, because there are so many pieces of the puzzle that have fallen into place seamlessly during this period. I don't need to, but I can tell you what it has brought. More or less.
Two weeks ago, after years of using hormones and/or medication, I let go of the last one (a hormone coil) since I was 15 years old.
It happened! The day before it was removed, I cried so much while I was in the shower, because at that moment I realised deep down that this was the end of an era. I am now 54 years old and going through the menopause. I don't know exactly how this will manifest itself, because I still had a hormone coil. So this is what I am experiencing now and will continue to experience.
I cannot explain how incredibly happy and grateful I am.
To some, it may seem very strange or crazy to be so happy about this, but for me it has been a long journey with a strong desire to get here! Not that I knew exactly what this desire meant. I recognise it now that I am here and feel it.
I believe that the menopause, although I realise it can be very intense, is a beautiful transition for women and that it is important to be aware of this. I would therefore like to move through it consciously and as naturally as possible.
Of course, I know that this does not apply to or feel the same for every woman. Women who are still very young, for example, or who have no choice for all sorts of reasons.
That is why I am extra grateful! Also because I have neglected myself enormously in this area. I have been in survival mode for so long that it was impossible for me to settle into my womanhood.
Yesterday evening, at the end of the day and just before my birthday, I performed a ritual in honour of my birthday and my femininity. Not because I had planned it that way, but because it presented itself that way. I did a meditation that my dear friend Joke sent me after the truffle trip. This meditation brought me back to my pelvic area, to my womb. Where my creative power resides. I felt even more at home in my body, now without the truffle.
As many may know and/or feel, we are at the beginning of a new era, a new period. Perhaps you have also felt or noticed where this lies for you. In what area. For me, it lies in sinking into my womanhood, my femininity. That is all I need to know right now. I don't need to know what I have to do for that, what it will bring me. It's about being PRESENT!
A wonderful gift for my birthday! At home and present within myself! In my womanhood.
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